In honor of National Cupcake Day (December 15th) I am re-posting an essay I wrote a couple of years ago, for my daughter’s 7th birthday.
While on the surface it doesn’t have much to do with hearing loss, it has a whole lot to do with parenting. In particular, as a parent of a child with special needs it is so easy to get caught up in the whirlwind of doctors, and therapists, and IEP objectives that we can easily overlook the little things that bring comfort and joy.
While it I sit at the kitchen table with a large bowl of bright pink butter cream at my side, a plastic container filled with 30 cupcakes on the other side, wait to be lathered in frosting.
In theory I shouldn’t be able to do this. It is the middle of the week. I work full time, I have two young children, a husband who travels during the week, and a myriad of other duties and obligations that I must fulfill during this holiday season. But it is also my daughter’s birthday.She has asked me to make cupcakes. The kind with lots of frosting and candy cane sprinkles.
So I do.
I bake the cupcakes at night after my children have gone to bed. I wake up in the morning and cream butter and powdered sugar together in my mixer, throw in some vanilla and sit myself at the table with a cup of coffee. I get to work and somewhere between cupcake three and four I lose myself.
I am not thinking about the deadlines that I have to make by the end of the week, or the few presents that I still have to buy. I am not thinking about the logistics of making Christmas Eve dinner, or if the gifts I mailed last week will arrive on time.
I am thinking about the frosting and getting it on top of the cake I hold in my hand. I become mesmerized by the swirls as I spread the frosting and work it around the top of the cake, followed by a feathering of sprinkles.
I slow down, for what seems like the first time in weeks, and I breathe. And I feel at peace. More connected to myself, and to my daughter, and for the kind of life that I want to live.
I am not crazy for taking time out of my busy life to make 30 cupcakes. It is exactly what I should be doing in the middle of my busy life….